I asked to get baptized at age 9 but I didn’t really understand what it was all about. I knew throughout my adulthood that I was saved due to the profession of faith I made but I had never invited Him to live inside my heart. I knew Jesus as my Savior but not as my personal friend. So I struggled in life. I made lots of bad decisions and was crushed under the weight of the consequences.
In 2015 I felt like I was at rock bottom. My second marriage was ending and my business was failing. My savings were depleted and late notices were piling up. I didn’t have a vehicle. Thankfully I still had a roof over my head although it leaked and the house payment was past due. I knew there had to be more to life than this. While all the adult years had pretty much sucked, this was an all time low. I remember thinking, surely life isn’t some big, cruel joke. I know there are people out there who have happiness in their life. Why can’t I? I started to cry out to God “Why am I here and what am I supposed to be doing?” I asked but I didn’t listen for an answer. It was more of a complaint than a cry for help. So I set out on a journey of self awareness to search for purpose and happiness. I broke all of the invisible barriers that had kept me trapped for so long and I went out on blind faith. I didn’t know what I was looking for but I took off to Florida with no home or job lined up to find it.
I learned new things. I had new ideas. I made new plans. I took classes. I bought book after book after book. I tried to put into practice what I had learned from How Successful People Think, Managing Oneself, 7 Habits Of Highly Effective People, Men Are From Mars Women Are From Venus, Kundalini Yoga, Spirit Driven Success, Your Best Life Now, Financial Peace and Money Master The Game among many others. I took the longest route possible to find happiness. Then I Finally looked in the right book.
I started thriving when I finally let God do the leading. I found all the answers I needed in the Bible. I now understand the deep, true meaning of Matthew 6:33. "But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you." I learned that if I dedicate my life to following Jesus, He will provide every single thing I need. He provides the joy. He provides the dream. He provides the plan. He provides an abundance. He provides peace.
All the mistakes I have made in my journey turned out to benefit me in some way. I have learned so many lessons. The right people are being placed in my path. Some are to learn something from, some are to teach something to. Some are meant to leave, some are meant to stay. I’m so excited to continue this journey with God as the captain.